Mass Extinctions_Jul 11 From Letters to thy beloved_In *closet hidden notebooks-Entry 700
VI.
If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.
From Emily Dickinson's Series One Part I: Life.
Dear Emily:
Your proverbial fainting robin took many forms during my childhood. Stray pets, food-industry innocents massacred, domestic animal cruelty, injured wild life and even the occasional unlucky bug—witnessing it all would always break my young, tender heart; until I realized the weight of that world of woe shouldn't be on my shoulders, that I possessed not the means nor the power to deliver solace to those suffering creatures around me. What's interesting is that I never cared much for distressed people. I mean, I do now because I have a growing knowledge of society's most pressing issues and whatnot; however, as a kid I would've whole-heartedly put my butt on the line for the poor carriage-horse whipped bloody, or for the clueless ladybug taking a nap beneath the school's doorway—something unthinkable for me to do when it came to another human being (unless of course, we were talking about my closest kin.) Wondering about the nature of this so peculiar behavior I developed a few basic theories.
First I thought it might be because I was/am too sensitive...But is it really?I mean, I always thought myself to be a selfish little man with an ultra-perceptive brain and a bad case of OCD, able enough to be ruthless towards another person as to give psychopaths a run for their money. No, sweet Emily I don't experience that all encompassing kind of sensitivity. So then I pondered about a possible cultural heritage; but yet again, I started really giving a dime about people a bit after my late teens and maybe not even. My family are definite a compassionate, generous lot, but they never worried about animals as much as I did, which is why my attempts at vegetarianism proved such a crux at an early age. So then, the only possibility left is genetics. Somewhere encoded in my genes there is an intrinsic and instinctive need to care for other species. it sounds kind of crazy, but the more I researched about it, the more it makes sense.
Emily, if you knew there had been not one, not two, but five major mass-extinction events, where between 60% and over 96% of the species were totally wiped out off the face of the earth. Colloquially known as "The Big Five". It turns out that we are not the first species to alter the planet in a negative way. In the book Scatter, Adapt and Remember, Annalee Newitz explains how Cyanobacteria, the very first organism to feed itself through photosynthesis, messed up the chemical composition of the atmosphere until the air became poisonous for everything living on or near the surface including Cyanobacteria themselves. This event lasted more than a billion years but still, there's got to be something in our genes reminding us that altering our environment can ultimately lead us to device our own destruction. Therefore our need to preserve that environment by caring about other living things around us. But why is that need stronger in you and me Emily? I want to believe the fainting robin haunting your poems, and the animal cruelty tormenting my childhood are not another product of out planet's gorgeous but soullessly intricate engineering, that our feelings and intellects will transcend the next mass extinction. Because in the end mother nature will wake up from her slumber, hair rollers sticking up, ready for her next geological shake-and-bake, completely unaware that humans crawled over her skin for a meager couple of hundred-thousand years—just another species on the long list that makes the sixth mass extinction; and that's just sadly nihilistic.